Hey guys, Medge here!
Can’t believe we’re already bidding summer adieu. As I prepared to write this post, it hit me that I’ve been writing on Adorned In Armor for a year! Looking back to my old posts, I can see the change between the person I was then and who I am now.
The past three months have opened my eyes in ways in which I will forever be grateful for. From learning to be patient, still and taking on whatever is thrown my way with stride—God truly revealed a lot about myself that I didn’t notice.
I didn’t notice a lot of the changes at first because it’s sometimes hard to realize when you’re in a cycle. Why? Well, doing the same thing over and over again can be quite comfortable. But it also places a veil over your eyes, so you don’t realize that you have been roaming — you were lost.
I am a daydreamer.
I think a lot and will often be so lost that Tarah has to snap me out of it. I can’t tell you how many times I miss out on something because I’m paying attention to the visions in my head. Seriously, being a daydreamer is just who I am!
It’s easy not being in the present and thinking of the future you could have for yourself. Personally, I envisioned a version of myself where I was successfully writing for publications, being an active member of my church, living life grudge and worry free.
The problem with that daydreamer mannerism was that my thoughts were not proactive. They simply remained in my head, which blocked me from seeing that all I had to do was take the first step into being who I wanted to be.
I was tired of accepting the way I was, tired of seeing the same person in the mirror but thankfully God cracked that image and showed me that the best time to change is in the present. It was all illustrated through my internship, my skin regimen and church life.
1. Here I was daydreaming of success in my career when opportunities were right in front of me! Byrdie has confirmed for me that being in a space to empower women and offer advice was exactly what I wanted to do. I was able to write for the site and learn so much about the industry. I grew in confidence with each journey to New York, with each task I delivered, gracefully claiming the future God literally whacked me upside the head with! I loved my internship — especially, the amazing editors who encouraged and helped me become a better writer. My last week of my internship I was asked to continue writing for the site! *series of tears, screaming & cheesy smile ensues*
SELF CARE GLOW UP
2. Unfortunately, eating kettle chips and wearing a face mask here and there won’t give you the results you want to see. In the beginning of this summer, I vowed to put a new effort into my health and beauty regimen. My skin has never glowed so bright (who needs highlight) and while my feet have suffered a bit from all the walking, I have never felt better. Instead of me soaking myself in soda and costly ubers, I walked! And although the walk from the train station to Byrdie was a strenuous, it whipped me right into shape.
3. Growing up in church and a Christian household, I’ve watched God use people, perform what man said was impossible, deliver, answer—you name it. Yet for me as I got older, I somehow expected that the change would come by age and time. I didn’t put in enough work. I found it strange that I got so nervous with the idea of singing in front of my church. Strange that I kept waiting to feel the “get baptized” nudge. Strange that I was waiting to be perfect to do so. Instead of shaking off the feeling, I prayed. I asked God to use me in the ways I saw in my daydreams times a million and then some. I asked and God came through.
At the end of August, I got baptized! I know realize that my inaction had me missing out on one the most beautiful and sweetest experiences and relationships possible. I was lost but God found me and still wants to use me!
This year, I claim full clarity. Clarity on who God is. Clarity on seeing more of who I am capable of being. I pray the same for you. Daydreamer, it’s there — just claim it.